So many curve balls, I picked the wrong career

I should have taken up baseball with the amount of curve balls that keep comin my way. I was checking some things with my school records and saw that my financial aid allottment had been reduced dramatically from the already low $4285 for the school year to a utterly pathetic $23. How in the bloddy hell am I to pay for tuition, bills, etc with that...I could get a tank of gas and thats about it. I call the financial aid office to figure out wtf happened and they tell me that the student loan database hadn't updated by the time they did the initial allotment so it wasn't taken into account that I had gone to school during the summer. Come to find out, there is a $46,000 cap on undergrad/post bac student loans...which is good but that sort of thing needs to be made known to students at the beginning of their college years and reminders sent as well. The guy I spoke to says that its published...RIGHT! click on this link and you find it...that is the equivalent of posting a bulliten in the deepest darkest basement in one of a hundred dusty file cabinets. Its not something that is easy to find unless you are really looking for it, the information should be included as soon as you apply for any sort of aid, included on the main page rather than hidden in some small type or remote link...you get the idea. I am beyond furious wiht the BS I have had to deal with from this school...the only other place on this earth that is as much if not more so of a clusterF*** is the whitehouse. *NO, I AM NOT BITTER* (MASSIVE SARCASM)

So now I am stuck having to apply for a private loan since I don't make enough to pay as I go...and now I am waiting on the edge of my seat and on the grace of God to see whether or not I will recieve this loan, otherwise I have to hit my mom up for tuition for this term...God only knows about subsequent terms...UGH!!!!

I still need to take a couple tests for grad school in education...gotta get to the practice tests this week and then schedule them, get them out of the way, hope I score well, then take care of the application. Needless to say....its not too much fun being me right now.